So I have been thinking. There is so much injustice in the world. In my short 50 year life span I managed to come accross and experience personal injustice many times. Of course with each experience you either end up hating the person responsible and move on or end up forgiving the person and move on. But in all cases the WHY is never explained. Why did it happen and why ME.
Recently, after 25 years as a believer I was confronted with this issue again. Someone who had hurt me so many times in my life, never gave a reason, never actually saw me as a person and to this day has never offered any explanation of why they did what they did, gave their heart to the Lord. So being a "good" christian I rejoiced in the fact that they actually after all these years had come to know the Lord. Then came the thought, THIS PERSON IS GOING TO HEAVEN AFTER ALL THEY DID TO ME, OR DID NOT DO FOR ME? My heart just sank. I could not believe that I would have to go to heaven and be happy sipping tea with this person. How could God expect me to do this. How did God expect me to be excited about them going to heaven. I truly struggled with this for a long while. I prayed and prayed and then one day decided to be still and Listen to God answer. (You all know my strongest gift is the GIFT OF THE GAB) It did not take long until He showed me this scripture :
1John 1 vs 9 "If we confess our sins, He is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from unrighteousness".
I realised then that if I believed this scripture to be true for me then it should be true for everyone. Even this person who had hurt me beyond belief. I realised that holding a grudge and being angry truly does affect us. Even though I had forgiven this person, I had never expected God, who loved ME, to forgive them. I realised that this was just plain MAN MADE JUSTICE. We like to think that God should punish everyone who has hurt us. Well why not, He is GOD and He loves us. But God is not like that. Before He hands out punishment, He offers the Blood of Jesus so that it can cover the sin. ALL SINS OF ALL PEOPLE, not just those WE think deserve it. Then He offers, Grace, Mercy and Love and this is NEW EVERY MORNING. And then of top of it HE offers us the gift of forgiveness daily. And then to top it all HE FORGETS YOU HAVE DONE IT once you have confessed.
We do not even come near that kind of love and mercy. When I realised this, I realised that God's love that I experience daily is FOR ALL. And the greatest kind of Justice is HIS kind of Justice.
I am now relieved to say that I am rejoicing in the fact that one day I will have a beautiful relationship with this person in Heaven. Distance in km's does not allow us to grow closer in person, but I know that each day, God is working out a good work in their life as much as He is working it out in mine!! And as much as I pray and work out my salvation with God, so is this person.
I am still no closer to the answer of WHY THE INJUSTICE. I do not know if I will ever know, but I do know that knowing that God truly loves equally and without INJUSTICE makes it so much easier for me to move on with my life and let go of things from the past.